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31 March, 2010 Wednesday // Art, Resources, Photography

iconWow, the crazy March has drawn to an epic close. Whew. :whoa: I’m happy to say our color guard team did really well for our first year of competing in WGASC, and we have the option of going to championships in April! :D My SAT scores are supposed to come out tomorrow…oh wow, I just realized that. Holy shit, okay now I’m nervous. It’s my first one and I don’t want to have a bomb ass score. x.x My spring break starts at 12:05pm on Friday. I know I won’t have much of a break—consumed by choir tech rehearsal week & concert—but just the fact I won’t have to get up early and go to school for 9 sweet days sounds beautiful. The rest of the school year dawns closer and closer, a huge blinding abyss I know I’m going to have to brave eventually, what with AP exams, finals, and the end-of-the-school-year shitpile. :frus: Hope.
Resources: I have ten (10) new icon textures. I reformatted the page so I no longer have to manually update each new icon’s code. It is automatic now. :D Teasers of them are below. I have also added some new stocks to the stock & scans page. There have been 25 downloads of the mannequin scans so far; they’re so cute and versatile to use—if you play around with color balance, you can match the outfit to any color you want.
Art: I have two new colorizations, the older one was a challenge entry at FLR Blends and lovely Angelina Jolie was done on my own for my own sake. :P Funking around on Photoshop produced a weird looking kind of conceptual design that I ended up labeling Naeolia on. It’s supposed to be an abstract old-fashioned cap (if you have no fucking clue what I’m getting at, I won’t blame you) haha. I put it under vectors because it was mostly done with the Pen tool, and the texturing was made from scratch. I love the camouflage colors I ended up with. :) Believe it or not, the scratchy looking texture stuff is actually a macro stock I have of the plush cushion things the little jewelry boxes come with. I know, weird & cool, right? :P I’ve decided to post the macro jewelry photos I took of some of my favorite daily bling. I also have two new retouches of Emily Deschanel and Drew Barrymore.


Confidence. When a person is young, it is especially hard to struggle with and balance the level of confidence and self-esteem. Some adults struggle to find their confidence all throughout their lives. The earlier you find out for yourself and become comfortable, the more you are able to grow as an individual, and most importantly, become an objective human being. As young as I am, I am glad to be able to happily say that given my circumstances, I have no issues with self-esteem. Confidence is a different matter. Confidence can almost span a lifetime to master. But, just because you are nervous, does not mean you lack confidence. I could have practiced as much as I could for a piano recital, and I would still be nervous, not because I lacked confidence to pull my repertoire off, but that’s just the way my nerves are at this point. Boldness is not a quality I wish I could always have in myself either. I don’t think being a bold person is necessarily the best thing. Bold, after all, does not always mean polite, kind, wise, intelligent, beautiful—it just means you’re bold. Which can be good sometimes and bad in other times. People like to fool themselves into thinking they have confidence, self-esteem, boldness. The latter is much more temporary than the others. Boldness is usually a fleeting attitude. Faking the first two aren’t bad; the only problem is that, as human beings, it’s usually the unpleasant that surfaces, and not breezy self-confidence. What do you think about yourself in terms of self-confidence? Do you put on a facade most of the time, or no?

12 Dreams

first off, Just want to say that I appreciate you visiting pretty much all my sites and leaving awesomely nice comments on every one! Means a lot, girlfrand!

secondly…. Totally loving that vectorified pentool-created work of art! Very luxurious-feeling. Love the texture you came out with! That’s so neat how it was the foam stuff for the jewelry…and speaking-of….your jewelry is freakin’ beautiful!

Those too-bold people really turn me off. There are entirely too many people out there like that, too. It’s what makes me retreat inside myself. Offline, I’m a very soft-spoken person that takes a while to feel comfortable talking in front of people…. so I’d have to say that my self-confidence is pretty low. I have some form of depression, too…so it’s really hard to stay positive and everything all the time. I will say that I like myself. My personality. I love to help others out, and I love to make others feel good about themselves…and to me, that’s two of the best qualities anyone can hope to have. Selfishness is something I have always seen in my family members and I’ve always tried not to be like them.

Sometimes I’d love it if all the “bold” people were brought down a peg or two….

left by Jen on 31 March, 2010 Wednesday

I love the new updates. And yes, March has finally said good bye. Hello, dear April! :love: I hope you have fun on your Spring Break. :)

About confidence, I definitely lack that quality. It’s really low and I envy people who has lots of it. I think people who have low self-confidence needs a lot of pushing and motivation from other people and from the person’s inner self. There are times when I muster some amount of it, and I feel good. I wish I have it every single day. =|

Haha. It’s okay. It’s about the charm that Angelica sent before. It got stolen even before it reached me. I so hate our local post office. Anyway, sorry if I have lots of smilies. =|

left by Luna on 1 April, 2010 Thursday

Hello, Nicole! I’m terribly sorry for the lack of updates. I’ll be very honest with you, but I’ve been lazy. But since we’re having our 2-month year-end vacation, I’ll have lotsa time to update good old Grotesquerie. :yes:

It’s good to hear that things have been going your way at school lately and that you’ve been spamming us with awesome content here. I’ll be anticipating Naeolia’s version eight more, though. Anyway I’ll answer your question regarding confidence tomorrow since my mother’s nagging me to go to bed already. :whoa:

left by Kenneth on 1 April, 2010 Thursday

So how’s that SAT grade of yours? :)

I want to try take SAT. We only have NCAE. Similar to SAT.

Confidence is something you learn to do. And being nervous doesn’t mean you don’t have confidence-true.

left by Grysh on 2 April, 2010 Friday

hi nicole! thank you for such a nice comment you made on my site! looks like you are making great art yourself! I like the statement jewelry pieces. And your colorization is BRILLIANT!! I love the multiple colors in the eyeshadow that’s GENIUS!

I would have to say I have good self-confidence, but you know I have my doubts. Hahaa But you know it’s good to be sure of yourself at your age, I think I was super insecure and a mess back then. But college made me more mature, and more accepting of who I am, rather than wanting to change myself.

I’m sure you did well on your SATs!
I did well on my second time, so don’t be afraid!

left by lucy on 2 April, 2010 Friday

ahaha. I’ve nearly finished the revamp. I just made a new layout and put up the art section. :D
Thanks, I am enjoying the holidays. It’s nice to sleep in, :love:
Good luck with your results for the SAT’s! We have HSC’s here.
Lovely new icon textures. I’ll be snagging a few!

What do you think about yourself in terms of self-confidence? Do you put on a facade most of the time, or no?
-I think my self-confidence goes on and off. I mean I’m not afraid to be myself and as you said I could still be nervous when performing a piano recital. And that’s true because when I perform songs on the piano with an audience I usually get freaked before and get butterflies in my stomach. I don’t think I have a low self-esteem either and people who have too much boldness sometimes put me off too. Socially, I’m sort-of shy when meeting new people, but I’m more like myself afterwards.
Confidence in many ways are complicated, I guess.

left by Patricia on 2 April, 2010 Friday

lmao, you didn’t get it wrong xD I’ve just received so much spam the last couple of months and I hate it.. As soon as I put it up I haven’t received any :D yay

Oh yeah, I’m definitely enjoying my Easter holiday :D We don’t have spring breaks here :) It is so nice not to have to think about homework.. Uhmm.. Not that we don’t have any because we do ^.^ I’ll be thinking about them on Monday and then Tuesday we get back to school ;)

Thanks :D I’m glad too that I have had the time to play around in Photoshop. I haven’t done it in so long! Well.. Haha. It actually takes quite some time to make it.. A lot of dupplicating layers and such.. I know that there are a tutorial out there but I haven’t used it so I don’t know how good it is xD

left by Helene on 3 April, 2010 Saturday

Hey Nicole, thanks for the lovely comment :love:

Loving the updates, you’re very talented :)

In terms of self confidence—I think I’m quite confident? to the point where I’m not aware of the way I am sometimes- I have the confidence to say how I feel and sometimes this can offend people? :S Possibly not the best personality trait being too outspoken/too much confidence. Although sometimes I can be quite self conscious if I’m in larger groups of people I don’t really know.

left by Antonia-Louise on 3 April, 2010 Saturday

oh, speaking of confidence, I guess I have. A bit ? cos sometimes I get blank minded in terms I’m with people whom I’ve never been with, that could make me speechless not to say something that they may not like it. tsk

left by jenifaa on 3 April, 2010 Saturday

Hey Nicole! Thanks for the compliment on my tattoo, it means a lot coming from someone who isn’t exactly a tattoo enthusiast :P

The new art looks great! Enjoy your spring break :love:

left by Sarah on 3 April, 2010 Saturday

Oh no, it’s not bashing her.. it was over the top girlfriend. I mean, I get that she was worried about him and everything, but for her to be legit PISSED OFF because they didn’t call, it’s just kinda like.. uhm, get over it?

I’m just so sick of cold weather -_- Stupid Canadian winters are way too cold and way too long.. we had snow on the first day of November this year.. and then there was some random snow storms in late feb too.. I soo wish I lived where it was warm all year round xD

The icon textures look so awesome! All of the new artwork looks great :D

I really wish I had higher self esteem. There will be random times when I do, but you’re lucky to have it all of the time :P

left by Meredith on 6 April, 2010 Tuesday

hi nicole!
i miss you!

make more cool arts, kthx

left by lucy on 11 April, 2010 Sunday

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