Welcome

Wow, the crazy March has drawn to an epic close. Whew. I’m happy to say our color guard team did really well for our first year of competing in WGASC, and we have the option of going to championships in April! My SAT scores are supposed to come out tomorrow…oh wow, I just realized that. Holy shit, okay now I’m nervous. It’s my first one and I don’t want to have a bomb ass score. My spring break starts at 12:05pm on Friday. I know I won’t have much of a break—consumed by choir tech rehearsal week & concert—but just the fact I won’t have to get up early and go to school for 9 sweet days sounds beautiful. The rest of the school year dawns closer and closer, a huge blinding abyss I know I’m going to have to brave eventually, what with AP exams, finals, and the end-of-the-school-year shitpile. Hope.
Resources: I have ten (10) new icon textures. I reformatted the page so I no longer have to manually update each new icon’s code. It is automatic now. Teasers of them are below. I have also added some new stocks to the stock & scans page. There have been 25 downloads of the mannequin scans so far; they’re so cute and versatile to use—if you play around with color balance, you can match the outfit to any color you want.
Art: I have two new colorizations, the older one was a challenge entry at FLR Blends and lovely Angelina Jolie was done on my own for my own sake. Funking around on Photoshop produced a weird looking kind of conceptual design that I ended up labeling Naeolia on. It’s supposed to be an abstract old-fashioned cap (if you have no fucking clue what I’m getting at, I won’t blame you) haha. I put it under vectors because it was mostly done with the Pen tool, and the texturing was made from scratch. I love the camouflage colors I ended up with. Believe it or not, the scratchy looking texture stuff is actually a macro stock I have of the plush cushion things the little jewelry boxes come with. I know, weird & cool, right? I’ve decided to post the macro jewelry photos I took of some of my favorite daily bling. I also have two new retouches of Emily Deschanel and Drew Barrymore.

Confidence. When a person is young, it is especially hard to struggle with and balance the level of confidence and self-esteem. Some adults struggle to find their confidence all throughout their lives. The earlier you find out for yourself and become comfortable, the more you are able to grow as an individual, and most importantly, become an objective human being. As young as I am, I am glad to be able to happily say that given my circumstances, I have no issues with self-esteem. Confidence is a different matter. Confidence can almost span a lifetime to master. But, just because you are nervous, does not mean you lack confidence. I could have practiced as much as I could for a piano recital, and I would still be nervous, not because I lacked confidence to pull my repertoire off, but that’s just the way my nerves are at this point. Boldness is not a quality I wish I could always have in myself either. I don’t think being a bold person is necessarily the best thing. Bold, after all, does not always mean polite, kind, wise, intelligent, beautiful—it just means you’re bold. Which can be good sometimes and bad in other times. People like to fool themselves into thinking they have confidence, self-esteem, boldness. The latter is much more temporary than the others. Boldness is usually a fleeting attitude. Faking the first two aren’t bad; the only problem is that, as human beings, it’s usually the unpleasant that surfaces, and not breezy self-confidence. What do you think about yourself in terms of self-confidence? Do you put on a facade most of the time, or no?

First off, I want you to take a look at this:
     The room was filled with bright morning sunlight, illuminating the tiny vibrant pieces of tissue paper falling through space. The confetti continuously sprinkled down, catching in the air, and frolicking its way to the floor. All through the day, confetti softly rained down. By nightfall, the ground was covered with the delicate debris. At dawn, a change could be sensed. The falling confetti was no longer leisurely nor light. The new kind had a purpose, along with a thicker texture, and with little leeway it streamed down, oppressing the colorful mosaic underneath. Glimpses of vibrant colors could still be seen, barely visible. At sunset, crimson and orange hues permeated the room, staining the falling confetti vermilion. By nightfall it was as if the floor was covered in bloody snow, and the room was cold.
     At long last, morning came once more, a weak sunlight spreading across the motley assortment of colors. But the confetti that was now drifting down was once again small, vibrant, and sheer. Slowly, the red ground soaked below, making way for the new layer of the clean confetti. It was a new day.
If you took the time to read it, comment what you think the purpose of it is. Then, you may enlighten yourself here: Confetti.

What’s your favorite genre of music? Mine are classical, rock, alternative, pop, and electronic. One artist from each (not particularly the favorite but one of): Debussy, Eagles, Gorillaz, Rooney, and Crystal Castles. There’s definitely more and stuff in between the lines, but I’m being short and sweet.

I wrote a new icon tutorial: Icon Tutorial #2. Updated icon categories are Femme & Men.

I also have some new pieces of art to share with you! The first is of Robert Downey Jr. (which OMGOMG I forgot to blog about Sherlock Holmes!! shitscrap…do that next time ) and the second is of Marie Antoinette. The latter is quite random, yes, but both were challenge entries. I’m happy with the way they turned out, especially the RDJ one, but I definitely wouldn’t mind feedback! I also have three new retouches: Tom Felton, Uma Thurman, and Courteney Cox (Arquette).